My story #1

 Hey, it's been a long time since the last time i wrote my story... Too long...


It's not a new feeling, but why it felt like something different.

I've definitely been here before.

But this is new.

Expendable.

I'm no one.

I'm just a little dust that passing through a program.

I won't bother anyone or anything.

Because i am simply nothing.

Still... The voices tell me to do something stupid and reckless, but i don't want to do it.

He still sleeping like usual.

Since the last time we have a fight and i win it, he's been giving me freedom to live a life peacefully.

Usually, he is one of this many voices... The loudest one... Try to break-out and take over... Again...

The funny thing is, I don't remember how i beat him last time. 

All i remember is he yield and say, "you've won. Imma sleep as you wanted. Imma came out again when you need me. But if that happened, would you be able to beat me again?"

And then he just laughing.

I don't know.

I honestly a bit glad his voices is gone.

His loud voice always make me sick.

Well... Beside of the voices that still remains and the 'new' feeling i get... I'm totally fine.

Fine and healthy as usual.

Just smile through anything.

Because nobody care. I always alone...

Yay... Haha...

Simple meme video gonna fix me right away.


So that's it for today.

See y'all later.

(Probably take me 2 years again to comeback, haha...)

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